The vows

I just do not know why I kept on deleting the words I typed just now. Too much to share with the rest of the world? Sometimes being secretive is good. I don't want to be naked and let the public watch my everything! Yet, sharing can help too. It eases the burden. Maybe it's all about moderation. Balance your life and don't let yourself being carried away.

This is not about politics! This is definitely not propaganda. I'm one of the many who don't want to think too much of the complexity of life or the world or the universe. I don't even like numbers! No wonder I prefer the latest gadgets which offer me the solutions to all problems. Let them be the assistants. I am neither brainless nor brain-dead.It's just that TODAY I just don't want to THINK too much coz thinking hurts! It's my nature to be over sensitive on certain issues. The more I think the more sensitive I'll be. So I need to protect myself! That's why I like being in my cocoon...

Just now I'd like to write about life & death but the issue is too solemn. Nay, Amida's World should be the world of happiness. It's not about ME! It's about US! So I made up my mind to calm myself, let myself be positive & write. Yeah, blogging in this world somehow helps me. It's a therapy to a patient like me.

Hey! It has nothing to do with my brain. I'm still sane. My sanity is still mine. It's just that today I'm physically not well & it somehow has affected me psychologically. I become slower, lazier and moodier. The dark aura seems to surround me & i really need something or someone to heal me...physically & mentally.

The doctor has given me enough medication for a few days. I think it's time I become selfish... think of me, not others. Yet I can't point my finger to others because it's my blunder! I should take good care of myself & mustn't depend too much on other people to help me out. That's why I MUST get well soon. It's all in my head! There are other people who suffer more than me. But they are STRONG! I repeat..THEY ARE STRONG! So I MUST BE STRONG TOO!

Please don't think that I'm terminally ill. Please.. the thought really scares me. I'm a healthy woman who needs to do some overhaul in life. I must be careful because I'm not as fit as before. Some changes in my life must be done before it's too late. Well, it's better now than never. I MUST NOT LET MYSELF BE TOO CARRIED AWAY!

Before i have the desire to delete this, I need to do something... publish it A.S.A.P. so that if i ever forget the vows, this post will remind me that I must never give in to my weak sides. Sometimes being sick is a blessing in disguise...(yelah tu). No one is perfect except ALLAH.

I rest myself....

my gibberish!

Sometimes I just don't want to do anything. Sometimes I don't want to think at all! Sometimes I feel doing nothing has been one of my favourite pastimes. Arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Somehow today I think I'm in the mood to share my 'world' with you. Yeah, it's nothing compared to the splendour lives of all the rich and the famous. I'm not a celebrity yet I am a celebrity in my world (ye la tu... mula nk perasan la tu).

School holiday has ended a few days ago...I've to bid farewell to the long break for a while and can't wait for another break which will be in September. Penantian memang satu penyiksaan. (sigh!)

What did I do? Where did I go? It's a long story but I believe pictures can be my storyteller. But for the time being, I need to take a nap. I REALLY need my beauty sleep. So, chow! The feeling to go, all of a sudden, overcomes me....

p.s. i believe i'm too tired to do anything at this very moment. i can hardly think straight! thanks to my lack of sleep which has exhausted me physically & mentally!

p.p.s. this is a reminder to all human beings out there... make sure you get enough sleep or you will suffer like meeeeee......zzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

SCHOOL HOLIDAY AGAIN!

YEAH!!!!!! IT'S SCHOOL HOLIDAY!!!! IT'S BACK!!!!

It's June! Today is the last day of semester 1. Wow, school holiday again! I'd better start now - listing down all the wishes, dreams, desires, failed attempts & possible activities. The list won't stop because it's..err..toooo loooong.... so friends, help me realise them...The too long list needs HELP so TOLONG!!!!!!!!

These are the activities that sound not-so-very-interesting:

1. Mark ALL exam paper so NO PROCRASTINATING, please..

2. Study for the PTK exam so NO LAST MINUTE STUDYING, please..

3. Clean the house thoroughly so NO RELAXING, please...

4. Separate the wanted items with the other wanted-but-not-used items so NO KEEPING & SAVING THE ITEMS FOR NOTHING, please...

5. Do the final stage before camping so NO EXCUSES, please...

6. Save money so NO SHOPPING, please... (no shopping? no shopping? i'm doomed!)



Phew, these are some but for now, they are more than enough...



Hey, gimme a break! I need my break! Here are something I'd love to do yet knowing my dear me, I'm not sure I've the time to do EVERYTHING!

1. Crafting so BEGIN CRAFTING, please...

2. Sewing so START SEWING, please...

3. Writing so START WRITING, please...

4. Losing weight so BEGIN EXERCISING, please.. (exercise? tak larat nyer)



The truth is.... two weeks is very short. I've so much to do. Which should be top on the list? Marking the exam paper should be my priority but.... marking is not everything! I need to be pampered like a princess (err.. or a queen) or let the beautician enhance my already beautiful self (bah!) or follow the beat of the music (who knows I'll be the next Malaysian favourite dancer...hahaha!!) or simply daydream of the sweet dream...(this is easy!) Well, whatever will be will be...



What to do? Go and take my shower first coz it's extremely hot now. Chow! I rest myself...

SPAGETI ALA MAK!

Rupa Spageti Ala Mak Versi No Telur..

Ehem, dgn wajah yg merah ( kes malu tp mau), maka marilah cuba resepi yg I cipta spesel for my kids. Dh ada yg cuba & I'm proud to tell u all, they like it. So mai la kita cuba try test tgk....

Bahan2nye adalah:
Spageti
butter / margarine / cooking oil (mana2 yg ada d dapur)
bawang putih / garlic (dihiris kecik2)
bawang besar / onion (kalau blh holland onion...ala, yg kaler kuning tu... )
stok / kiub ayam (any brand)
ayam / udang (ikut suka nk letak @ tak. Kalau letak lg best)
fish ball (tak paksa tp kalau letak pon OK)
sayur (preferably kobis tp nk letak kangkung pon no hal.)
carrot (kalau nk nmpak ada kaler)
air secukupnye
garam & lada sulah (secukup rasa)
telur (kalau nk)

Macam mana nk buat ye? Senang je. Kita guna konsep campak je tp pastikn bawang & sayur tu dh dpotong / dhiris ye. Okay, are u ready? Gini caranya ikut stail mama moden Rosh....

1. Jerang air dulu dlm periuk. Bila dh mendidih baru masukkn spageti. Kalau nk spageti nmpk licin boleh masukkn minyak / marjerin / minyak tp sikit je tau. Bubuh cukupkn syarat je.
2. Sementara tu, blh le hangatkn kuali. Then masukkn minyak masak ke atau kalau nk lebih yummy & fattening, cuba le planta ke, butter ke. Bila minyak dh panas, tumis bawang putih & sedikit bawang besar yg dipotong kecil. Jgn masukkn semua bawang besar tau. Reserve some for the next step.
3. Bila dh naik bau, campak je stok / kiub pati ayam. Pastikn pembalutnya dbuka ya. Kacau supaya sebati & masukkn air ikut suka. Kalau nk berkuah, lebihkn air. kalau nk dry, sikit je air pun dh OK.
4. Lps tu masukkanlah bahan2 ayam, fish ball atau udang atau sotong (pastikan yg segar, bkn yg kering). It's up to u all. Ikut citarasa. kalau d dapur xde bhn2 tu xpe. Belasah je ikan bilis tp pastikn ikan bilis masuk kuali sblm air!
5. Seterusnya, bila bhn dh sebati, bubuh le garam secukup rasa. kacau, kacau & kacau... masa ni baru le masukkn bawang besar yg direservekn sebentar td. Masa ni nk masukkn sayur pun cantik. Kalau blh x nk masak sayur lama sgt. Tp kalu nak masukkn carrot, kena masukkn awal2 td sbb nk bg carrot empuk.
6. Spageti yg dh kembang (so make sure masak spageti dulu. Kalau x jenuh tunggu) boleh le dmasukkn ke dlm kuali yg menanti. Gunalah senduk ke, sudip ke utk kacau bahan2 dlm kuali agar sebati.
7. Kalau nk 'over' lg, blh masukkn telur k dalam spageti & gaul telur & spageti smpai sebati. X nk letak pun ok. Blh gak letak lada sulah secukup rasa.
8. Kacau, kacau, kacau smpai rasa dh cukup masak. (ehem, guna instinct memasak yg sedia ada tu ye)
9. Tutup api, masukkn spageti yg siap tu ke dlm bekas & bolehlh dmakan dgn famili tercinta. Kepada peminat makanan pedas, masuk le lada tu byk sikit. Nk lg kau, masukkn cili kering masa tumis.

Jgn risau. My recipe is designed for busy mum like me. Senang je. Campak je bahan2 tu. Tak pyh nk sukat2. Agak2 je. Sbb tu nama resepi ni SPAGETI ALA MAK sbb mmg sempoi, mudah & bdk2 pun suka. Bila dh siap, blh le bgtau diri sndiri..."ALAMAK! DH SIAP YE SPAGETI ALA MAK NI! ALAMAK! MUDAHNYE..." Jgn lupa puji masakan tu walaupun org lain tak puji.

One more thing, ada tip utk anda semua. Ehem... masa memasak tu masaklah dgn penuh kasih sayang sbb kita kn nk memasak utk org2 tersayang tmasuklh utk diri kita sendiri. Sbb tu Spageti Ala Mak ni sedap!Tak lain tak bkn sbb yg masak tu kita sendiri...hehehe..

SELAMAT MENCUBA! Dah cuba habaq mai la kat sini.

p.s. bab masukkn kangkung tu acah je ye. I pun x cuba lg so x tau le apa rasanya....hehehe..

My Off Day!

No school today. Not for everyone but only me. Thanks to the stomach pain caused by the food I consumed yesterday. Thank God, it isn't severe or I'll end up at the hospital. I'm one lucky lady.

Soooo, the moral value of this story is..... delicious food is good... but too much delicious food can kill you...hehehehe... well, the pic suddenly makes me starving.... Makan utk hidup atau hidup utk makan? (Eat to live or live to eat?) Errr... both? hehehe...

THE TWO BIG DAYS!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BELATED MOTHER'S DAY!!

This year, the celebrations for these two BIG days were soooo boring. I didn't feel like celebrating them at all! Everybody seemed to forget the importance of the days! I shouldn't complain. I did get a birthday cake! All thanks to my dearest boy, Ijan who kept on pestering his Abah to buy me the cake. He even bought me a cute green brooch this year. I was really touched. Luckily, he was extremely eager & he made the day so much more beautiful.

Even Mother's Day was like any normal day. Nothing! I had to remind my kids. But again, why should I complain. My little princess Raina did give me a handmade Mother's Day card a few days earlier. Maybe she gave it too early. That's why I didn't celebrate it this year. Arghhh!

Still, I think I've to say this aloud...."HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOTHERS IN THIS WORLD!". Is that all? Yeah, that's all. No further complaint! Fullstop.

Mid semester 1 break is just around the corner!

What? Another break? Another holiday? For us? Yes!

I have a lot to do and the list is so long......and some in it have been frozen for so long. Yeah, I'm a lady with a zillion wishes yet of course I can't carry out EVERY THING! Hello. I'm not a SUPER HERO with a super duper power who can do everything in a split second. Even Superman is not perfect. That's why he has to be Clark Kent & avoid the Kryptonite stone.... Even Spiderman, Cicakman, Ultraman or other super heroes have their very own weaknesses which show that to err is definitely human's special gift.

I've listed all the do's and as usual, I'm not sure whether they will expire without any action done....Alah, give me a break....It does me no harm to build sandcastles in the air! I need to daydream but I won't let myself become the old version of Mat Jenin who was dead in the end because of his daydreaming.... Like the late Martin Luther King once said, " I have a dream...."

So, one more holiday & I'm ready.....hehehe.....